best off as nothing.

tender gaze infused with honey scented reasons
it's autumn outside winter & my bones are trembling;
I wish you could see through glass houses & broken skies.

I find comfort in porcelain avenues
because birds cannot sing symphonies that have never been composed;
& I would draw a stake through his heart if this empathy didn't underestimate me.
it's absurd to listen to incomplete songs, when you're already one inside my heart.

it beats on counts of four by four, but follows softly each touch;
yet it hungers, it hungers for food that cannot be given;
Why do you yearn for solitude when indeed you search for companionship?

& I'm scared that grasses will no longer be green,
that eyes will not sparkle the same if I shall ever speak of truths I feel.
I've been meaning to place a stop sign beside your doorway;
but of this you will never know[...]

there resides no verve to confess;
eloquence ends when silences knocks us down;
& dogs cannot bark at things they have always enjoyed
because butterfly can't flutter when they're heavy on the back end.


Do you miss me lover? or has the tendency of regret segregated across your chest & pale disbelief? Yet I wonder why tears cannot cascade, why pain does not surge;
Why with you I feel so alive, so safe....

I miss you darling;
& the sun keeps shining down the old corridor I ran with you;
Windows never seemed so pretty when darkness swept in tight.
Have you ever seen a morning like this?
Radiant bliss yet hopeless illusion....

I've been meaning to talk you for a while, but I can never reach you...


[...]&  the sky shall not collapse.... stay with me;
I'll tell you everything in seconds to be;
breathe me, like you used to;
untie the knots you made across my chest;
kiss the pains away & tell me what I came here to listen.
Then will I only tell you my name...

Dance with me, dance with me one last time my love
& enhance this tragedy that always seems to smile;
embrace me & tell me you care, you need, you live.....
{ just for me...}

& in such a reverie.... you will never know.
the truth might crush your soul.... you will never know...

{ I wish you knew...
  how much I've held my breath when your voice came about...}

it aches me.... angers me.. yet I miss you... but you will never know....

[ I'm afraid... so very afraid to loose you completely.... to have you entirely...
to miss you an eternity... to not tell you enough for you to listen...]

My darling, will you wait for me on the other side;
where grasses keep growing, where the wind keeps pushing me onto you?
Will you whisper sweet nothings at the top of your lungs?
& will you lure me enough to make me realize I was always good for you?

or will this be another solemn anathema, condemned to succumb to the agony?
oh.... but you will never know.....

how much you mean to me...