stone cold heart

my voice has been deystroyed
my words are turned to dust
every thing i have done
has gone and laid to rust

ever more is my stone cold heart
lying in a bed of thorn
my love for him stays forever
but my love for them is torn

i looked to them for sympathy,
guidance, and remorse
but the longer i was in denile
the more i was letting life run its painful coarse

now i know the truth
about their hurtful greed
i need a true friend thats what i wanted
now i've got it what more did i need

i have a loving boy-friend
i have  loving friends
my heart is open to them
yet it's still hard for my trust in others to make amends

i want a life filled with less sorrow
i want a life filled with less strife
but how can i do this
with my life is at an edge as thin as the blade of a knife

i'm sitting on a bronze cliff
with no way forward no way back
at that lays in my complex life
is another anxiety attack

i love my wonderfull boyfriend
i love my wonderfull friends
now only if my bloody, stone, cold, heart
could make up it's mind in the end.