I lie here uncomfortable,
As my thoughts begin to shift.
Drifting off into an abyss.
The darkness is soothing,
When I close my eyes,
And I try to unravel my mind.
I lie here uncomfortable,
As the storm begins to brew.
Slowly rumbling from the distant gloom.
I twist and I turn as I try to escape.
But nothing, not a thing,
Will make the pain go away.
I lie here uncomfortable,
As the stabbing settles in.
I clench and I gasp for air.
The knot is tightening,
I know there's something I can do,
But really, it doesn't seem reasonable,
Not a reasonable thing to do.
I lie here uncomfortable,
As the pain washes over me.
I slip in and out of consiousness.
Why can't this feeling stop?
I don't want to eat,
A bite is critical, to how I will appear.
I cannot eat, I cannot taste,
Either way I look at it,
I die if I take a chance.
Author notes
4. Dying To Be Alive
Vice - Not eating.
The constant struggle to eat or not. It's stupid though, because it never works, I end up giving into food anyway, but I try to convince myself that if i don't eat i will be skinny, but then i end up wanting to faint. either way i'm dying...if i eat i hate myself, if i don't, i might die ='(
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Comments
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That first line and I had it...And I guess you would only if you knew the feeling yourself.
Travelling that dangerous road...
I liked the repetition of taht first line, like you're reiterating the idea of that sensation. The fact that it is so uncomfortable playing over and over in your mind....
The author notes made it all clear though...it was harder to read what you were trying to say from the poem alone...
I get it though, You feel like a failure if you eat, your body fails you if you don't.
No win...all to be thin.
And at the same time, you're never sure if it's all really worth it.
Is that how you feel?
If you want to yell at anyone about this, you can message me any time, I may be able to help...
Or at least try to understand what you're saying.
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