The End

I've always wanted to know what it would be like to die, to end this waste  of a life......
To say goodbye to the ones that claim they "love me" to the ones that have loved me  to fall into darkness, a slumber that screams welcome and yet screams  the end....... The end of nothing more than emotional roller coasters, The torment of night and day The disease that is rejection and the pain that is love that burns deeply that it stings
A smile too hard to wear, A laugh to sickly to  echo,I can't count the times I've faked
As I sit in this room I wonder how hard the rain will fall how much tears will flow....
How god will weep as I lay under the ground in my slumber feeling finally at home.            No one ever told me what happiness was like then again I've never experienced it.....
I've been too busy killing myself slowly too busy counting words that have went wrong To busy over analyzing my mistakes replaying them as proof to my worthlessness (flaws) Flaws that are punishing me with the mocking taste of failure...(Fail at life) that's me
This is the last time you'll see my face...the last time I'll ehco a word...Oh one last smile
Only because when the end comes...You'll only forget about me