Will It Ever End

Is it so wrong,
To feel like this?
To know what it's really like?
I feel these words becoming true,
Holding over time,
For an eternity.
No one will ever be
In the same position,
As I am now.
The castle I build around myself
To keep them out,
Now crumbles around my feet
Ending in disaster.
Will It Ever End?
These thoughts that torment me through the day.
I can see it all,
Breaking like glass,
The shards are so sharp.
But what do I care,
As I lay among the ruble
Of a former life
I used to know.
Yet I know
It’s a vicious cycle.
So now I must start anew.
Rebuild those walls again.
To keep it all out,
To keep me in,
Away from it all.
But still I wonder,
Will It Ever End
Will I ever learn,
To just let it lie,
To life with what I’ve done?
And to finally learn,
That it will end,
But I will always go on.