Unavoidable thoughts. [mad.ness]

Thoughts swirl above my eyes,
Blending into madness.

[i'll fight, i'll sink]
                  Pushing Me Around; used to the addictions.
  swirling round my bottle, drinking down the dirt.
It burns my throat,
A single drop,
Just clench my fists + - - - shut my eyes.
  (i'm afraid my eyelashes turned to glass)
Shattered  to a million pieces.
. memories are lost: "deal with it"

  Grabbing you arm, pulling you          away.
Pulling you                                        down.
Into my mess.
Welcome To My Life.
---> detour.
Unfortunately for you,
          it's unavoidable.


because:
Brutal thoughts are secret wants.
      [just think it through]
piercing sounds of screams and ...
                                                wait.

my nightmare was my idea in the first place.
        [i'll fight, i'll sink, i'll  try to stop]
But nothing will stop swirling.