Im not the ordinary person that you see
you dont understand how hard it is
to be someone like me
You act as if im invisible
you act as if im not here
but have you ever bothered to ask
"what is it you fear?"
God why am I like this
how can this be real?
dont you understand anything
or how i even feel?
Everyday and everynight
i step upon the scale
as it reads 94
i know that i have failed
I hate how i look
i hate who i am
i hate everything about me
but no one gives a damn
I know i cant be perfect
i know i wont change
i ll have to accept
that i ll still be the same
I can no longer go to the mirror
for fear of what i ll see
once i look i will scream
oh my god how can this be me!
As the mirror shatters to the ground
i pick up a piece of glass
i take one last look at my reflection
then i let it all pass
Oh how i wish the pain would take over
i dont want to fight
i just want to give up
even though i know it isnt right
But if i let go now
where will i turn
do i want to make that mistake
will i ever learn
Every time i fall apart
i try to keep it all together
but when im fully recovered
where do i start?
Should i start a new beginning
begin a new life
forget all that was lost
and how i used the knife
should i stay the same
and keep on this disguise
hiding all my thoughts
and feelings deep inside
should i forget my mistakes
and become the person i once was
who always lived for dreams
and was perfect so it seems
soon i hope i realize
what im doing wrong
i hope i will not give up
i hope i will stay strong
i hope i ll find the courage
to learn to face my fears
to be able to stand strong
and fight back all the tears
this is my one true dream.
that i hope does come true.
even if it never does.
i ll keep trying to make it through.
GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH GOD
GIVE ME COURAGE. GOD GIVE ME THE POWER TO GET THROUGH THIS AND BE OK
Author notes
this is just a poem that explains me and how i feel at the moment
~me~
Written April 7th, 2004
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thank you!
im glad u liked it!
thanks for commenting on my poems
i ll be sure to read some more of urs later!
love always
kelsie -
ive never read alot of peoms that really stuck into my mind
but this peom is sooo good!!! one of my favs
It just puts images into your head
and i can picture as i read it wat happened and stuff
This poem is amazing! i love it!!
Love Kels -
well i know that you know that you ARE worth something and you are beautiful. i wish you the best, and i hope you'll be ok
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Nice Job!
This is well done and very strong. You can make it, you are going to make it, I believe this, and you must keep believing this too. You might like this to "Say To Yourself" allpoetry.com/Poem/383540
You are going to be OK, there are better days ahead. 
USpace
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Well, even though the words say that you feel un-impressive at the moment. The WORK itself says that your beyond impressive! this write was wonderful! I loved the repitition of the questions "Should I?". I hope the ugly feeling of yourself changes, because at the end it shows how truly beautiful you are, even for trying to be who you once were, the faith and hope itself will bring you out of your depressing state with flying colors!
LoveEssence
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This was an intense outpour of emotion. I felt this young and vibrant girl grasping at what is important, fighting off image and the society who placed it on her. I took away courage that in the end knowing strength comes from within. thank you for having the guts to share but more thank you for allowing me to walk away from your write with my own perception, learning a little. Take Care
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