He is like the black lady to me [not sure of a title yet]

But how do I explain what I cannot?!
You see there are no words for what you are-
So heavenly vile; I'm left distraught.
Your selfish crudeness flies off the radar.
You crass excuse for a lover! Hurt me?!
You ins'lent boy, this is the way you play?
It's murder witnessed by one who can't see;
It's the way you torment me ev'ry day.
You wicked jackal, rub salt in my wound.
I loathe how you leave me exasp'rated;
Repusled by how your absence leaves me m'rooned;
Disgusted from feeling heavy-headed.
But even through all the pain that I endure,
I can only say that I love you more.