what now?

Some one tell me what I’m feeling?
Heart break? Love?
I don’t know anymore
For so long
I’ve made sure
I don’t like you
Any feelings I have towards you
I push away
and away and away
You love me, I know
But I never let you in
Everyone thinks we’d make a great couple
But I deny them
I say no, never.
And sometimes I do believe that

And now she likes you,
What a twisted love triangle
We have weaved
She my best friend
Yours to,
And your mine too
So what happens when I decided
Maybe I do like you
What if I decided not to
Cover those feelings anymore
What if I decided to admit maybe
Just maybe
I am in love with you
That’s why I haven’t had a boyfriend
Cause no one is like you
Well then maybe

Then maybe you’d tell her
That we will never date
Before I’ve even
Made up my mind of telling you.
Maybe you’ll say
That you know we won’t
Ever be together
But what if I finally decided
That’s what I want
What if I finally gave in?

Well now it’s too late
I guess that’s what I get for waiting
3 and a half years
Tell deciding I like you back
I guess I deserve it
For stringing you along for so long
And flirting
And making you want me
I guess I can’t help it
That’s who I am

So now I'm stuck alone again
Pretending I don’t like you
I can’t tell any one
I’ll just act the same
Nothing will change
I don’t love you
Don’t worry