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when u move somewhere new, its like a new slate, a clean start, nobody knows who you really are, who your're really like. so you can pretend to be anyone. or can you?#

i thought that i could forget my past, my self harm, and my depresion, and start a new, no body would be able to judge me becuase they wuld ony no what i tell them.

however, problems arise when the normal network f=of friends no what my reaction is to somethign uppleasent, but all these new people dont.

i didnt want them to nothe real me, i wanted to wipe the slate clean again, start afresh, not that i was a bad person before but i wanted to leave my own habbits and traits behind.

but i have learnt, that there is no good hiding, becuase if you want support from those around you, your going to have to tell them you need it.

otherwise it could become a horriblelittle secret, one that u dont want, becuase the problem with this secret is that once you do it, you ned help, but u didnt prepare them for it and therefore they coudnt have supoorted you through it.

so you see, i wish i had been truthful about my self harm to people, i guess its nothing to be ashamed off, its just something that helps me cope

but does it? then you have the guilty secret which no one nos about and covering it up is jsut as painful as doing it.