Television Screen

Its like looking through a t.v. screen,
watching my own life go down in flames.
watching waiting whats to happen next.

i know not yet what to do,
but i know a bit about what not to
yet always pushing boundaries even more.

when things come out
i never know
what i will say next.

because words don't flow like thought out speech's
but more like thoughts that turn into speech's.
some make sense but others don't
and that's how i got here today.

because of yelling and screaming
drinking and tolerating
and finally blowing up in her face.

I moved out of home and came to this house
and now i have to stay.

i've left all my friends,
screwed up my family,
all without any notice.

so I'm all alone outside the screen of my boxed in little television screen of a life.