You see, being so immensely lonely, along with my crazy bipolar moodiness and instability, will soon or eventually drive me to insanity. Losing my precious sanity is what I worry continuously. I feel fury as materiality becomes increasingly blurry. Yes, I can guarantee suicide to be, ultimately, my final fatality. As I go, eternity will close in on me as I rid myself of this misery. You must agree the sound of waiting anxiously for one's already loose grip on reality to slip off permanently is unbelievably scary. So before I lose touch completely, with vanity, I’ll simply end it selfishly. But damn, my poor, family… Maybe once I’ve lost touch infinitely the agony and guilt I feel internally will disappear completely. Only then will I finally rest peacefully.
- Chris
Author notes
I'm not actually suicidal, but this was easy to write while looking back at times I seriously was and really thought this way.
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I can relate, but found it moving
as it touched on my own area's in my life.
thank you so much for sharing your heart sweeties
love and blessings
Rend
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i really liked this good write
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Very dark, yet relateable write. I have been here before in the past.. and understand the fear yet the drive. Well written indeed.
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I can relate
This is something that I think most people have experienced at some point in their life. It touches me on a personal level. Although I currently do not feel this way, I can remember a time when this was a strong thought in my mind. Good write, keep em coming!
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Awesome write...
And glad to hear you are not suicidal...
I'm sure everyone has had the thought cross their mind at some time...
Some, it passes quick, and others it hangs on...
But I am glad it passed for you.
Well done.
Good luck in the contest. And thank you for entering.
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