The Beach

I am here at the beach in Carlsbad, California. It is the first time I have been here in a very long time. The beauty of the ocean and the clouds that are surrrounding the blue skies are an incredible sight. Directly in front of me , are white clouds that seem  to form a castle in the sky, that appear to be at the end of the ocean. The water seems to have a neon appearence, casting shades of blue and green, and a slight shade of orange and purple, just on the surface of the water. The sun is shining and the air is so clean and clear. 

I feel such peace within my soul. I want to take it back up with me to the mountains in Big Bear where I live now. I am totally in the opposite direction of from where I live now, but it is just as beautiful in a different way,.

There are surfers in the water, and only a few people around me. The sand is soft and warm, on my feet. I let the water from the ocean waves splash over my feet, a  cold contrast from the warm sand, beneath me. It feels so good and refreshing, I hate to leave this beautiful place of peace..

What a blessing to have spent these wonderful glorious days with my daughter and her wonderful husband, while the fires in big Bear were running wild, and we had to be evacuated for a time.my daughter and her husband are so  good to me, I am so blessed.

I also was able to spend time with my dear parents, and my sister, so it turned out to be a mini vacation, and the best part of all, is there wasn't any damage to the homes in Big bear. Although, unfortunately lake Arrowheard had quite a bit of damage there.

I want to take this peace back home with me, to comfort me wherever I go. It is my time for happiness. I wish that Richard would have been here to share these moments with me. perhaps he is here somehow. I still fell his presence. He really was the love of my life, he taught me so much. Most importantly, to stand on my own too feet. I would like to thank you Richard for the gift of independence, and breaking the cycle of my co-dependency. You have know idea what a gift that was that you gave to me.

I would like to Thank you God, my dear father in heaven, for all the gifts and blessing, that you have given me through-out my life.

They are too many to count in this letter, but you know what they are, and i want you to know, how grateful I am for all your love, understanding. amd your blessings, and please! know how grateful I am, for you, jesus, and the angels that have watched over me...


I love you,
Your daughter Debbera temporarly on this earth,
to my loving Father in Heaven.