How did my life, my ideals...
How did they get so far off track?
I've broken vows I've exchanged with myself
I've let down the wall that protected me
I've fallen in love, such a pure and sweet love
But now... now that love has a hint of bitterness
My ideals, my morals... they're weakened. Broken.
I've let him so deep into my soul that they've entwined.
And now I feel I'm lost within
And my heart and soul wants to be with him so badly- opposite of my logic
I want nothing more than to be with him always, grow old and die side by side
But now... but now I don't know if we'll make it that far
I was so afraid of love... so traumatized by what I witnessed through family
And now here I am looking in from the outside... I'm not sure what I see anymore
I'm so scared of losing him and of losing the security he provides
My prince charming... what happened? Have we both taken a bite of a bad apple?
I've abandoned everything
And now I'm scared of leaving with nothing
It hurts so bad to have these thoughts
These doubts-- I'm falling apart from the inside out
Oh how alone I feel
What happened to our love? Is it just me?
I can't tell what to do anymore
My heart says Yes! oh how it pleads.. but my head... my head... it says no.
Is there a way to fix this? Can we pick up the peaces?
Will we be like we were before? So in love and burning with passion?
I don't want to be without him now that I've found him
We call each other soul mates... Soul mates pull through the worst, so we'll make it... right?
Author notes
There's so many pieces on the floor, so tiny and scattered.
*I love you Luis, with every bit of my essence. I believe we can pull through this if we try our best to work through these few issues. Love is about working things out even when things are tough. I will stick by you through even the worst times because I know we will always have the best of times too. I love you.*
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holy crap hun, you really did something great with this. you know, i've been feeling pretty much the same way about one of my roomates. its weird and hard to explain but........ yeah, moving on. there was a certain personality to this write. i dont know how else to describe it. i could see you like sitting on the corner of your bed just thinking these same thoughts. great write kid. also, i noticed on your page that you were looking to write a book soon. i got a great site for you to check out and they sell your book on a print only basis, which means that they only print the number of copies that you actually sell. my friend at work told me about it.
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