prayers of a worthless nobody

Darkness surrounds me
will I ever feel fine?
I always say I am
but my life feels so close to that final line

Everyone loves to use me
abuse me with their words
some words leave permanent impressions
and others just hurt

I feel as if I am worthless
like a board made into a bridge
everyone just walks over me
making sure to stomp each of their heels into each little ridge

and I am tired of crying
these invisible tears nobody see's
I try to stay strong in the light
but in the darkness I fall to my knee's

and my nights are so lonely
and they go by too slow
I just wish I would fade away
somewhere no one would know

and if I layed bleeding
lifeless upon my floor
no one would care to ever
open my god damned door!

they have shut me out of their lives
like a door they never will enter again
I am locked inside this hell
as I scream my final amens'

and I am dying
and I have given in
so many dreams before I had
I will never dream again

and I make myself vomit
to relieve myself from sin
I am just a worthless
piece of shit