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A Brittle Biography

 

 

"I no more wrote,

than read that book

which is the self I am,

half-hidden as it is..."

 

Silence is a comforting counterpart

It bores itself into the hollows

twists wounds into words

and forms its own emergence

 

I didn't seek the supposition

of this mainstay

For I am no more the author

of it, than I am the reader

 

"... from one and all,

who see within a kiss

The lounging, formless blackness

of an abyss"

 

I cannot grasp the yearning

yet I petition it still

 

despite brittle skin

the intimate necessity

for it remains resilient

 

seeing the radiance past

the darkening void

 

and I will not let the language

concealed in this

manuscript of self

endlessly

consume me

 

 

 

 

Author notes

Artist Credit: http://sophie0305.deviantart.com/art/11-134598268

Author Credit: Parts in italics are from the amazing poem by Delmore Schwarts

Umm.. ok.. I know this is weird.. I'm medicated and wrote it in 5 minutes, and it's personal so...

 

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  • Valley Girl silver member
    November 11
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    Fantastic write. Thank you for sharing something so personal with us Auntie J! Congratulations on the Gold!


  • perfectsunset gold member
    October 14

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    Wow- this was SO worthy of the gold,
    it's inexplainable for words. I love
    how this poem made me feel..
    such reality and depth that I
    do not witness everyday in poetry.

    Thanks so much sis for sharing
    such an inspiring piece. I love it.

    & congrats on the gold

    xx


  • Xianaria gold member
    October 12

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    A gorgeous piece, and quite worthy of the Gold! I loved the visuals & phrasing.

    *
    I cannot grasp the yearning
    yet I petition it still
    *

    Been there, done that so many times!

    ~ Tim


  • Amera gold member
    October 4

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    I read this before and I could have sworn that I commented on it. Congratulations on the gold trophy, it certainly deserves it. I love how it's so easy to get lost in the words here as you vividly weave them in layers of imagery. Bravo Sis!

    Love,
    Amera♥


    • kiwigirljacks gold member
      October 4
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      Thank you Sis! I always look forward to and appreciate your comments so much


  • secberm
    October 3

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    You don't stop do you...? As always, babe...

    Anyway, missed you. I would write more but playing catch up.

    Later.


  • inder silver member
    October 2

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    Sterling! vivd and intense...beautiful and aesthetic...melancholic and in gay abandon all at the same time.. very good indeed!

  • bassman4
    October 2

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    Silence is a comfort, but between friends its radiant and all knowing!
    Use silence wisely miss J, but don't wallow in it.
    Awesome writing, let your feelings out, we, who know you, KNOW this poem.
    Its Jackie.


  • Emmyb gold member
    September 30

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    there are some key phrases which really jump at me in this.

    the whole thing runs smoothly and professionally

    well done

    a great author you are



    Emmyb


  • Naridill gold member
    September 28

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    I adore this, you worked in the Delmore Schwarts bits perfectly and the flow is amazing. You have such a talent to phrase things that approach the reader beautifully. Dare I say, why haven't I read much of you earlier


  • Fritz O skennick gold member
    September 26

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    Beautifully penned Jacks...

    Strong narrative penned in such a soft, gentle voice that is thoughtful, heartfelt & full of the most wonderful depth throughout...
    Keep up the good work & congratulations on a well deserved Gold shiny...
    Well done!!!


  • Ken-Maverick
    September 26
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    I'm starting to like your stuff


  • notorious
    September 26

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    "half-hidden as it is..."
    That part sounded like a snail. In and out of a shell (if this is a poor metaphor, it's because every time I see a snail, I get freaked out.)

    The excerpts of that poem really gelled with what you wrote; it could easily have been hokey and it wasn't.

    "yet I petition it still"
    god how that makes me think of reaching for something you can never have, because you're too short (again with the poor metaphors, I know). Which ... doesn't stop you wanting it. Damn humanity. Honestly.

    That last stanza is empowering. I like it.

    ;

  • chiefmac
    September 25

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    Hello my friend. This has so much body moving the mind of the reader through many emotions evolving. Surety is commodity written on the sleeve hoping someone finds meaning that escapes the narrator seeking form and meaning to questions that are just beyond reach. Gold is well deserved .


  • azlyn gold member
    September 25

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    Beautifully GOLD! Amazing and touching as always!


  • awannabepoet
    September 25

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    And finally I see Kiwi stand tall above the variance and adrift on the sea of endless words where once there was darkness now there is Gold and a Smile I would dare to presume.

    Most well deserved piece of Gold.


  • AliceinPoetryLand gold member
    September 25

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    Bravo! Wonderfully penned and I can see why you won gold with this! Excellent writing and so inspirational at the end. Congratulations


  • Randomly Beautiful
    September 25

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    OH MY GOSH! Your posts are SO worth the wait! Amazing, and so very deserving of the gold.


  • Pure Thought silver member
    September 24

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    Great GOLD !!!

    Isn't it awesome when you write spontaneously from the soul, then upon re-read go, "damn, that's pretty decent and I wrote that."

    THe last verse is the killer.
    Well done Jackie, very well done.


  • Poetic Tasha Moderators member
    September 24

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    oh mia bella cugina
    this is amazingly crafted,
    you are one masterful & gifted poetess!
    glad to see that you earned the well deserved gold with this
    wonderfully woven masterpiece.

    I can't even pick a favorite part, the two italicised stanzas were lovely
    the entirity quite soulful!

    Much love
    Tasha


  • MJ Donnelly gold member
    September 24

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    "Silence is a comforting counterpart

    It bores itself into the hollows

    twists wounds into words

    and forms its own emergence"

    Wow...congrats and what a powerful piece Jackie, perhaps one of your all time best, in my opinion.

    So soulful.

    • kiwigirljacks gold member
      September 24
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      Aw thanks so much MJ! I wrote this in 5 minutes flat so it must come from the depths of the soul maybe... I'm so pleased you enjoyd it!

      • MJ Donnelly gold member
        September 24
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        Uh huh, sometimes writing poetry is like a sex quickie, you just have to do it because the urge is so powerful and immensely satisfying.


  • Reptile Lady gold member
    September 24

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    Awesome.. deep and meaningful
    I love the image your words have painted in my mind
    I have no need to look further as this breathes the dark
    best wishes hun

    Julie


  • SpydurPoet gold member
    September 24

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    Powerful. That was an amazing write. The emotions were brutal and sorrowful, but it was a stunning write.
    Write on.
    ~*~SP~*~


  • AutumnGypsy gold member
    September 24

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    We are and always will be a culmination of our experiences and our triumphs and pains, whether we want to be or not. It's whether we recognize the opportunity to learn from every happening that decides if we will be victorious in this life.

    Silence is our protector, that barrier we keep around ourselves incase we get hurt or sometimes to stop ourselves from hurting those we love. You know those who love you see through the silence, feel the tears on our skin from eons away, so the silence never truly is silence, it's just a comfortable understanding between friends that you are in pain and need time to catch your breath.

    Sam the philosopher is on fire tonight. Maybe just now we are both learning lessons the hard way but for me it is a blessing to know I have a friend like you to treasure in the darker times and to laugh with in the lighter time.

    Trains aren't the only lights at the end of tunnels sweetheart.

    I hear the silence.... and I know

    Love you xxx

    • kiwigirljacks gold member
      September 24
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      Sam the philosopher indeed You hit it right on the head here sweetheart.
      Thank you for seeing beyond the silence and the weaving of words I use to hide within and protect myself. You are a blessing to me!!

      Ahh... I hope that light isn't a train heading straight for me!

      I'm here for you always ♥


  • Levon
    September 24
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    Silence is a comforting counterpart

    fav line


  • Levon
    September 24

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    good stuff Jacks really good stuff


  • Mango Memories gold member
    September 24

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    Dayyaamm! Well worth the gold. Bout time i read something really really good today ^^!


  • chilali
    September 24

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    wow. i love this. congratulations on the gold. well deserved. you are the one that rocks!! YOU!

  • Bob Fox
    September 24

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    My

    You know poet the raw emotions that splill from your words , to me, creates a powerful bond between the writers mind and heart. A truly excellent piece of poetry indeed.


  • LadyDementia gold member
    September 24

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    Congrats on the gold!!

    Wow, that was fast! As you know I love this write, the parts you've used from your book are excellent to write from, different and I like it Hope you'll explore this direction some more. Congrats on the much deserved gold hunni

    • kiwigirljacks gold member
      September 24
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      Thanks hunny!! I looked at the picture and then I remembered that poem.. and it made me think about how sometimes we aren't the authors of ourselves... we are the formulation of many things that have happened to us... but not to let the abyss consume us or to let the manuscript be a portend for the future... .. I'm not sure I should write on opiates!

      ♥

      • LadyDementia gold member
        September 24
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        That is so true, and if anyone can write from that perspective its you hunni, and you did it so well What??! If I didn't write on opiates I would never write


        • kiwigirljacks gold member
          September 24
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          Oh.. and you hunny.. I'm sure you understand more than anyone!
          Hehe.. get 'em down ya then lol


  • PrInCeSsOfRoCk gold member
    September 24

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    well definitely different haha. but im loving it
    you are so lucky you got this in, i was literally about to hit judge when i got your message lmao.

    finally got ur ass in my contest hehehe


    • kiwigirljacks gold member
      September 24
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      Different it is! Though you know where it forms from...

      By the skin of my teeth lol...

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