My Epiphany (The Rose Petals)

And I breathe hot air.
And the wind was cold.
And my heart was stuck.
And your view was lost.

There is a place in my heart where I hide.
A place so dark and full of light.
There is a place where I keep my memories.
A chest.
A secret so small.

Inside my dark chest full of memories so bright,
I find you trapped and fine.
I smile... 'cause I see the mirror of the one I knew,
and I am stuck, unable to breath once again.

So I handdle my thoughts,
I try to crush my fate,
I feel so light and new.
I feel so heavy inside you.

The time when I saw the real you the last time,
when we enjoyed our presences and scents,
when you hold me tight and didn't let me go,
when you prayed to feel me by you one last time.

That day was a confusing and vast,
so plain and so full.
I never understood...
that that was our real last lullaby.

I remember the look in your eyes,
that look that cautivated me to hard,
a look so deep that now dies,
praying me something...
like a worried whisper...
and like seeing just through my fired soul.

And I feel so in love,
even if I hide it... even if I deny it,
I still breathe your air,
and I can't handdle it...

The way I miss you is so big...
and I don't know if I should suffer this way...
I miss the one I fell in love with...
I miss the you I knew and adored...
I miss a heaven that called your name.

And I am just an epiphany...