I’m losing my humanity,
my élan vital has become so very inclement.
I can’t seem to care
about anything anymore.
Things that meant the most to me,
that moved me and stirred me
from gelid depths, just sink me deeper,
pulling me under and I fight it no longer,
the war is over and I am culpable
to naught but my own compunction.
Brittle thoughts crumble to dust,
whispered away on an ill wind
that sighs like the icy breath
of waking Winter.
I stagger blindly, forever falling
through harsh brumal wastelands,
adrift amidst fickle contentions,
lost to abundant woes that lose their bite
in shards of splintered truth,
numb to all that once made me human.
Choking on fumes of despair,
noxious in their toxicity,
drowning in an ocean
of fetid despondency,
losing myself in a cataclysm
of my own making,
numb to a life of fragmented spectres,
congealing in neglect of all
that once made me whole.
And I really couldn’t care less…
Author notes
F r i t z O s k e n n i c k
8. Soulful
9. Artistic
11. Lost
20. Long Suffering
Found pic a while back on google, if anyone knows its origins, please let me know so I can credit... 
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Undaunted. Exponential Exposition.
Hails Commander Poet,
Gratitude to You for submitting, "Barely Human..." into my contest: "Choose a
Characteristic."
Wishing You the best,
till then
Welcome Finalist to the Games!
stay
liquid
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you have chosen such powerful words
when life loses its meaning
it becomes superficial we tend to walk the cycle but are not living it
my view and this is only my view,
you are growing spiritually and all is seen as it is
numb to all that once made me human
human condition is temporal
we are not temporal
awakening perhaps
loving the outer seperates
not loving the outer makes you whole
I hope I haven't perceived wrong
love your word choices
stunning write
God bless you my friend...
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OK.. first of all
that pic is gonna give me nightmares, it freaks me out!!!!! lol 
Now the write.. well.. I felt the absolute feeling of being bereft of humanity and even emotion setting on... that point you get to when it all becomes too much and you have to numb out to it all.
This is fantastically written!! Again, really felt this!
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I guess you were having a bad day... there is a hell of a lot of powerful emotion going on in that there poem. I loved it. I hope it earned you a shiny cup. x
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Wow, you pull no punches. When it comes to the darker side of anyone, life, of the mind, you really have the way of writing it so that we all understand. How I love that last line. Does that mean when you no longer care, nothing has the ability to hurt anymore?
Mumsie
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Descriptive...
I really like this write and the use of vocabulary; it gives this piece life and a feeling that sinks deep. Somehow it reminds me of a song and I think that in a way, it is something people most often times tend to think about when they find no meaning in life. If I may, my favorite part: "I can’t seem to care
about anything anymore.
Things that meant the most to me,
that moved me and stirred me
from gelid depths, just sink me deeper" I can identify myself as one of those individuals who, from time to time, tends to think that "what happen to everything? When did I stop caring, or do i even care about ppl and things anymore?"...And I find myself wondering what about the things that I once hold dear to me, they now seem to mean nothing....I really like this poem, its quite saddening and a reminicing of the past...Thank you for such great write.
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sad life events have made me feel this way. I know some people do feel this often . You wrote this in your usual brilliant way. I lu brother of mine.
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nice....
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Brilliant!
This stirs the secrets inside of me
I love the bg and the pic is perfect
as is this piece!!
I love it!
Thanks for sharing
and best wishes in the contest!
~ P A S T E L
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WOW WOW WOW!!!
Can I say it one more time? WOW! LOL
This was fantastic! This piece is over thrown with tones of despair and near melancholy... everything is pulling you down deeper and deeper no matter what it is and there is no escape and in the end you have decided to just give in to it all... there is no care left. And it's all laced with such fabulous words that just scream lonesome abandon! Forlorn with a definate lost feeling to it... so it fits the prompt you picked perfectly
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