Deaf ears

I try to say my peace
But it falls upon deaf ears
I try to tell you everything
About my hopes and fears

But the more you ignore me
The more my fears eat me
And it's not just the fears
That start to defeat me

I try to tell you I'm scared
And it falls upon deaf ears
And everything we made
Starts to fall around my ears

I don't do drugs
I don't drink or smoke
But I want a drink
Away this smothered hope

And the more I say
The less you listen
My heart pukes in my chest
And my eyes start to glisten

I want to cry
I want to die
When I look at you
I feel like you want to spit in my eye

And as much as I tried
For this not to happen
I tried so hard
To treat you the way you want to be treated

Now I feel like the fool
It's my fault for trusting you
And it's like you hate me
But you still say
I love you

And everyone says them
But they are only words
Now your words fall on deaf ears
And this whole thing is absurd