So Much Pain.

Place your hands in mine.
can you feel my pain ?
sweaty palms and the shivers..
I'm 20 years old and my life is withered..
time passes by and speech cant even be delivered..
nails grow long as I hold my head high..
but no one knows my struggle or even as to why..
shit neither do I.


Look into my eyes.
can you see my pain ?
blood shot red and the tears..
you have no clue not even the slightest of ideas..
the shit I've seen and the fears I've feared..
I'm far past scared..



Touch my body.
can you deal with the pain?
my skin so hot but my soul so cold..
they called me a young man with an old soul..
pressed against the words spoken behind my back because its all I know..
but I'm silent because he who listens will always grow..



Feel my feet.
can you walk in my pain ?
turn around..
can you understand why I walk in the rain ?
the rain drops of pain drop on my name..
but I keep pursuing it because with sunshine I'll never be the same..
I just want it to be over, patience, I was explained.



Read my mind.
can you understand my pain ?
the lies and deception I've dealt with..
swallowed my pride because spitting these words never helped shit..
family and friends are here but the love never helped it..
I'm helpless..