This moment

The house is silent all I hear is the sound of me typing on my keyboard
The slow sleepy breathing of my family
In and out like a soothing lullaby calling me
Yet my mind races with thoughts of tomorrow of worries that I can not change
The need to hear old songs that bring tears to my eyes
My heart is saddened by nothing I know
I should be happy with the many Blessings but happiness is just out of reach
I try to shake the vale of sorrow but all I can do is mask it with a smile
Rarely it shows to anyone else but tears flow from my heart down my cheek with no reason
No sense in dwelling no time to reflect on how we got here
My family needs me to work and pay attention to their needs but who worries about mine
A moment here and there is not enough
Is that why I am so sad?
But I am Blessed.. I know that
But my heart is still broken, how?
I have a husband that loves me, two beautiful little good girls, but whats missing?
I am selfish to want more, to feel more than love?
In this moment sadness still envelops my thoughts , I sigh a deep slow breath
I will hide my thoughts and sadness with a smile and lay next to the love that loves me...
Hoping tomorrow I will let go of this sorrow and it be replaced with happiness..
This moment is gone until the next