people.

People make me eat things,
When i don't want to eat at all.
So i eat, for thier sake's not for mine.
Then after i do,
The guilt creeps on me like.
So, i walk into the bathroom, with one thing on my mind.
I am too fat.
I walk into the toilet, shut the door behind me.
Close my eyes,
Stick my fingers down my throat, and choke.
And vomit.
Then, a wave of relief comes over me,
And i feel so happy now!
But then....guilt creeps on me yet again.
I try to dodge it but it gets me.
I walk out of the toilet,
And give a big smile to my friends.
I need to reasure them, that im fine,
Because i need them.
If they knew what i was doing,
I wouldn't have them anymore.
I feel like i'm stuck in one painful circle of Bulimia.
The pain is to much to take at the moment.
I hate it.