some days i sit and think alot
of all the arguments and fights that i've forgot
of how you say i'm such a cruel person
a horrible person for just stating my opinio
some days i sit and think of you
i'm a friend, a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend,
a helper, a saver, a gift, and an angle
and yet i still feel as if i'm not good enough for you
some days its like it just drags on
heartache after heartache
and yet i still seem strong
i try to be happy and paint this simple picture
for all those to see and endure before me
then at night when all are in bed
lots of thoughts go through my head
cutting, pills, tears are cried
and then something stops me inside
the thought that you cared and wanted me to be
happy, loved, and satisfied
well all you've proved is that your like the rest
a deeply hearted shellfish guy
you never cared all you said to me
were lies you just sit back and enjoyed the ride
you just smiled and giggled and endured my pain
never asked if i was okay
when you started to put me down and things got worse
i began to think and feel as if i wasn't good enough
why am i not a good friend?
why do i leave scars on my skin?
why do i set a bad example for my sisters?
why do i make myself out to be who i am?
painting on a smile for all you and your friends
to hide all the scars and open wounds on my heart
no matter how many times they are sewed shut
you seem to still open all of the hardest ones first
starting with the deepest and the softness of your touch
your always there to put me back together
and then you do it again
its like a continuous cycle
and then when it ended i'm still made
out to be a horrible person for others to see
because of the things you said and your just pure jealousy
when will it end
when will people like me for me
instead of the things you made me out to be
when will i be loved for just who iam
am i really that bad just tell me i ask you
am i really that bad for you to just see
the feelings inside the pain that i feel
the hurt and everything else
is it so hard to ask to just be loved for me
instead of what you've made me out to be?
What did you think
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wow amber thats deep. really emotional and shows a lot of ur feelings.
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Aw Amber its char. This is a really good poem. It is so true to thats how i feel with Aj. Keep up the awsome work girl.
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This is a really stron emotional peice and I love it.
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this is a really great piece and it says a lot, a really great way to show your emotions and i love it.
The last two lines made me think and hwy dont people love thise for who they are.
A really great job and i love it
Keep it up and thanks for sharing
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I know how you feel, this is so amazingly well written
Keep writing
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thanks and i will keep writing its my outlet on life
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"of how you say i'm such a cruel person
a horrible person for just stating my opinion" sounds like what goes on with me like all the time.
"i try to be happy and paint this simple picture
for all those to see and endure before me
then at night when all are in bed
lots of thoughts go through my head
cutting, pills, tears are cried
and then something stops me inside"
just minus the pills and thats totally me.
i love this poem! i was so excited to finally see u hada new poem up. this is very relatable to a lot of ppl. its kinda speaks to me
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