I am Nothing

You horrendous witch, how you  killed me. As I bathed in your vile of poison words. Letting them soak into me, eating me-limb by limb.

Devouring me slowly- my thoughts, my body, my mind. Suffocating me as I heave up, this nothingness that I am.  Drowning me as I struggle to hold on- struggle to breathe- struggle to grasp to this life, this reality.

Your poison took me over, your poison BECOME me. I existed in a lifeless body. A puppet feeding off your words, “you will never be good enough, you are pathetic and hopeless, you are nothing.”


Nothing.


I believed you, for you are what I held onto, what I breathed, what I needed, what I wanted; a ficticous dream of someone who cared, who loved, who wanted-
                                                                                                                        me.


I found  a sunshine in my life, the blue sky, a summer’s butterfly. I love, someone I hadn’t loved before- (myself.) I dream of another sunset, not with you- but with the passion I have- for my own life, for my goals, for my future, FOR ME.


I AM good enough, better than you.
I AM something.



I have found ME.



And now you plead your bleeding lies to me once again. Speak your fallen waterfall of apologies wishing to once again rule me, control me, though it “shouldn’t have happened, and will not again.”


You wish to come around when my life is on a track to my destiny, to my hope to my dream, a future full of passion, respect, love, truth-
                                                                                  things you will never have.

To you –
I not say you are pathetic, hopless and nothing, for I rise above.


To you-
I say, thank you, but no thank you. Have a great life. Without me.