Is this anyway to live?
Lying to the world so no one sees my pain
The scars are just a fraction of the hurt
People always want to know the reason for cutting
But they just don’t understand
Even other cutters don’t always
We all have our own reasons
I do because the physical pain overtakes the mental
The physical scars are easily dealt with
Eventually even they’ll fade away in the darkness
But nothing can ever erase the emotional scars
Nothing will ever fix the damage long ago done
Why I have so much is something I don’t even know
But what hurts the most
Is that you’ll never know why I pushed you away
You’ll never know why I did this to myself
Never be able to help me in the useless battle of healing
So why can’t I let you in when I want
When I need your help to save my life
Without you I could live no more so where are you
Where are you when I need you the most?
These tears not yet shed have been there for days
With no sign of ever being cried
In trying to mend my heart I’m breaking yours
So now I leave this for you
The one who might yet save me from my own hell
But in the process discover yours
This is really old, over 3 years actually, I was 15, don't be too harsh! =)
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im crying.
well i connected with this on a very deep personal level. Im overcome with emotion. This was a beautiful expression of the feelings one has who has gone through the turmoil and heartbreak of cutting. its amazing how much i see myself in this. Im out of things to say when i want to say the perfect thing to you, to let you know i really do understand. This was perfect and emotional and i love this.
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thank you soo much for reading and commenting on this!
I'm sorry I made you cry though!
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it was in a good way
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