Look At Me

I’ve prettied up and dolled up, I’ve hoped you’d look my way
You meant everything to me, Once upon a time
You hurt me, My self esteem vanished clean
I watched you turn away, No explanation
Nothing except I’ll call you, when I get the chance
I shut up my mouth and my mind, I waited patiently and gave you
Your space
Life is tough for you I get it...Oh dear god, is it hard!
You have your family
No one threatening the ones you hold dear
you have your friends who love you.....for who you are!
so you go ahead.
drink, drink away your pain
forget the people ~ who still need you
smoke away your hope and leave me in the dust....for caring just for you
put another guilt on my plate....watch me make another mistake
as I deal with the world falling around me
I haven’t one person I can turn to fully
I’d scream with rage but my fears silently eat my voice
leaving me silently in tears
do you realize who I am?
~ I’m the one ~
who talked with you through the night
And slept with you until
~ The light ~
I wanna know if you care?
I am the mother
....Deserted.....
Watching him try
to steal my child
~Away for Me~
I am the friend you have forgotten
as you worry about your petty little things
how your jobs must suck.
at least you can afford all three meals a day
while I wonder how I’m making my next payment
how I’ll afford to raise my child alone
yes I am angry and resentful, but I am silent too
hoping you’ll look back......see me slip behind
and for once, please dear god. pull me forward like I have done for you
remind me of hope or the beauty I once had.
give me courage.......where I have none
save me from these demons
who strive to steal thy child from my womb
give me faith and hope and I’ll be there
everlasting for you