Suffocating

I am falling through the broken window of acceptance,
With closed eyes and locked doors.

All I wanted I threw away.
The light in my palms -- I extinguished it like it was mine;
I failed the Rorschach test with falling colors.


I look into the abysses, the sky, and the words blur with my epiphany.
I thought it was the world to me,
But apparently the world means nothing.

It’s something, something great, something falling apart --
A broken heart.
I did my best -- it was the worst thing I could have done-- to everything I have ever loved.

When will it pass through my epitome?
This disastrous apathy.
I lost my affinity,
Now suddenly I am lost,
Lonely,
And empty.


I never knew that I was the worst thing for you.
I say I’m not your pain, but that’s not true.
Everything thing I thought was right was only my perspective.
Now I am here, and you are gone; I want to live, but can’t go on.

You are my breath.
I’m holding my breath,
Holding my breath until there nothing left -- until I have no air to breath.