Modern Day Two-face

There's a voice in my mind, and it speaks of all things.
Like the truth in my life, and the pain that it brings.
It speaks of your heart, the one I hold dear.
It tells me of things, that I try not to fear.
I sit in the dark, and I think to myself.
Of all of the things that I've seen in this hell.
But then a large blur falls over my mind.
And an empty feeling is all that I find.
And then it goes black, and your face disappears.
I'm starting to feel like I'm no longer here.
The emptiness fills the voids in my mind.
I scream out for you, but it's all wasted time.
For you can not hear, and you can not see.
That the man in front of you, just can not be me.
He is the man in dark, that's filled with such rage.
For he feels like a dog, thats locked up in a cage.
And when he gets out, you hide with dismay.
For he will hurt you with words, and the games that he plays.
He gets in your head and fills you with pain.
And shows you such things, that drive you insane.
But as fast as you scream, he leaves with a bolt.
As all of my thoughts, quickly come to a halt.
But when I awake, I don't recognize.
The place where I stand, or the pain in your eyes.
I run to your side, but you try to retreat.
As the love in my heart slowly starts to deplete.
I fall to the ground, filled with anger and hate.
Then a thought cross my mind, that made me irate.
I realize the fault, is the voice in my head.
And no one is safe, until it is dead.
So I run far away, to where no one could find.
Even a trace of the man, that would be left behind.
I run and I run, until finally I found.
A place in the clouds, with no one around.
I leap from the edge, and all I can see.
Are the memories of you, quickly rushing toward me.
But I grasp onto one, and refuse to let go.
And it's that feeling of love, that felt just like home.
I looked in your eyes, and spoke of my love.
How no force could divide us, below or above.
I drop to my knee, in front of your seat.
You look in my eyes as the tears start to seep.
I look back at you, unable to stand.
I pull out the box, as I ask for your hand.
You dropped to the floor, as the tears start to flow.
And the only response you could give me was...