I knew from the moment she was introduced
By the way you looked at Her
That there would be trouble
A few beers later I became the background
A couple of shots and maybe some doubles
Your liquid courage made me an after thought
At first it was all fun and play
Then someone other than Her pushed their tongue in your mouth
You were digusted by her
You quickly pulled away
I saw it all when it took place
You looked around, not for me, you searched for Her face
You sat beside Her in the truck, with me on your lap
Your hand, I saw you place on Her knee
I thought,"Oh, she's drunk!" I reached for your hand
You slid it away from me returning it to Her thigh
I clasped it more tightly the second time
I heard you let out an aggrevated sigh
While I was driving the car you were too close to Her
I think you finally realized my exsistance
You half-heartedly planted a drunken kiss upon my lips
I suppose you thought it bought my forgiveness
From the beginning I told you I do not share
That night you obviously didn't care
Back at the party, you continued to flirt
You sat beside Her and lifted the back of Her shirt
Placing your hand in the small of Her back
You began kissing Her gently on the shoulder
In total disregard, I guess you thought I couldn't see
In complete openess you were so badly disrespecting me
I wasn't the only one who saw you
Your family there witnessed it as well
I saw you lean in and whisper in Her ear
And how you sealed it with a kiss on Her cheek
Your sisters tried to separate the two of you
A drunken rage-filled monologue you began to spew
You told me how you hated me
How your worst Ex was so much better
"And that's saying alot!"
How you would never have a child with me
'Cause it would be "retarded" and I should return to my ugly Ex
How I wasn't worth anything, not even for sex
The object of your affection's husband quickly took Her away
You must have thought it was my fault
As you continued in your rage, to me you walked
You screamed and cussed me at the top of your lungs
You pushed, you shoved, and even slapped me
My humiliation, first-hand witnessed by your family
They pulled you off of me
I was trying to gather myself so I could leave
You told me I'd have to walk, but you forgot I had the key
You yelled it was over if I left
I stood there frozen, trying to catch my breath
My heart broken, my soul in anguish, I wept
During your ranting and raving another fight broke out
Somehow the two fights crossed paths
Ours on pause while we tried to sort their's out
Craziness ensued and all things a blurr
With scars, from the party we did depart
Yours on you physically, mine on my heart
You say you don't remember and don't want to know
Leaving me to suffer this burden all alone
My mind on repeat, breaking my soul in two
The betrayal like a bitterness in my mouth makes my stomache turn
Tell me, from this what was the lesson I was to learn?
In one night of drunken folly we both were burned
You have to carry yours physically, with time it will fade
Mine is emotional carried by my wounded soul
Stuck on replay I am tortured mentally
No words are spoken across the vast gulf between us
With no "I'm sorry" there are no more "I love you"s
I'll never forget it, but I'm not even sure I can forgive you
A night of alcohol ending in betrayal replaced our love with hate
All because of liqour and your attraction to a girl that's straight
My trust in "us" is gone, I'm hurt and feel so alone
I still love you, I just don't understand
I wish that night had never happened
If I could I would turn back Time's hand
Author notes
This is very personal. I wrote it when I was trying to get through some of the pain. I would appreciate your thoughts and your comments!
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- Betrayal by Maili Knephthan.
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HEY I WAS HOW EVER IN THE SAME SITUATION AS U 1 NYT AFTER THAT I ENDED IT WALKED AWAY LEFT HER FOR 6MNTHS BUT SHE BEGGED ME 2 TAKE HER BK SO I DID BUT THEN SHE MESSED UP AGAIN AND THIS TYM FOR SURE IM DEFO NOT GOING BK THERE XXXXXX -
wow. speechless....i will comment more in a message to you. But great write and Im glad ur able to express ur hardships through writing.
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I understand how personal this can be. and Yes I agree with Ktulu that it can make you stronger but it doesn't take away the pain an hurt. There were places though that I it didn't flow as well as I thought it could of. And I didn't get why you capitalized the HER in it. the first letter of each HER that is. Thank you for entering this contest and good luck
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While this is very personal and very heart breaking, at the same time I think that what had happened here probably also made you a stronger person. That is my take on it.
**Ktulu Blackwolfe**
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You know you are right. I am stronger for it. It also helped me to see some things that I was too blinded to see before. I learned something about that person as well as myself. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment on this one!
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I am glad that I read this one. I really liked it. Sometimes the only way we can let things out is through the pen...and it is then that we can sit back and reflect on it and sometimes feel better about it.
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Awesome, I love this, and i meant to tell you, I think it's awesome your bi, im 13 and am bi, I still havnt told my parents, only my brother. And i think it's awesome when people can come out and be proud. Your poem I can really relate to, very very good
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Thank you so very much, dear! I appreciate your sweet comment. Hang in there, it's different for everyone. When it's time for you to share that part of you with your parents or to tell your story to others you will know it. It will be a force inside of you that moves you to share that most personal intimate detail of your soul. It will be because you want to share who you are completely with them, you will know when the time is right.. Feel free to message me anytime, you can talk to me about anything if you need to...
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wow. this reminds me of my ex girlfriend. i do know how you feel. and yeah, its a scar that never goes away, its always there reminding you of the pain. i know whats its like. but the scars are there to take you lessons, to remind you to never put yourself in anything like that again because you are so much better. nobody deserves a relationship like this, i learned it the hard way. im glad your out of it and i hope soon the pain becomes easier to deal with.
you're worth more.
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Thank you, you're so sweet! I am glad that you could relate to it and that you too are out of that relationship. It was painful at the time and I still deal with on some scale daily. Some days are better than others, but it's getting better with time. Once again thank you for thoughtful comment...
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Im the same way. With time Im learning how to deal with pain better and make it so it doesnt hurt as bad. You are welcome!
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wow this is a poem i think alot of people can relate to and thats wat writing is all about so i think it is very well done its well write you took thought into it which isnt as easy as it sounds (id give you 3 claps but im out odf poems)
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Thank you for beautiful comment. I really do appreciate it. I just looked at your profile, can't wait to read your writes! Thank you again for your comment!
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i have been looking for a way to describe some of the feeling that i have...a man whom i thought was my best friend is now with the women i once called mine. your poem play out the last two weeks of my life. to a tee...its morbidly compelling. im really glad that i had the oportunity to read such work. sorry you had to go through it. i feel your pain.
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thats soo well pinned.....its really painful...sorry you had to go through such experience...
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Thank you! It was quite painful, I think I still deal with it daily on some level. I just looked at you profile, can't wait to read some of your work! Thanks again for the comment!
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this poem is intoxicating one....alcohol runs the mood of the protagonist.....and you are the forlorn and slighted bystander..who is looking at the scenario from bi-angle..beautiful..loved this one so much that I could give you all that you missed bystander...lol -
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Thank you for your beautiful comment! Thanks for the offer too, lol!!!
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