As I lay here,
Tears start to roll down my face,
He is laying next to me,
And I love him to death,
At times I get these feelings of lonlieness.
He puts his arm around me,
And I cry to myself,
Why me, Why me, Oh why me, why why why, oh why me.
Marriage is something I dreamt of,
Love that last a life time,
He says he may never get married,
And I cry to my self,
Why me, why me, oh why me, why why why, oh why me.
We laugh and joke,
He talks on his phone for hours,
While I sit here,
Feeling alone,
And I cry to myself,
Why me, why me, oh why me, why why why, oh why me.
Someday I will have a family,
Children running and playing,
A real career when college is done,
Will he be in it?
He is my love.
Thinking of this I cry to myself,
Why me, why me, oh why me, why why why, oh why me.
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Just a little something. I feel alone when I am with my boyfriend at times. He is always talking to other people such as his dad, sisters, and friend. We talk on the phone while he is at work or while I am at work. Sometimes face to face. I just wonder why me. I want marriage but he isnt sure if he will ever get married. He tells people and me sometimes he can see us together forever. Maybe married some day but doesnt know if he will. So that is why I write this. I love him with all my heart and hope that someday he can make that commitment. I dont want to spend my life with someone that cant marry me because he thinks if we have a diagreement I will leave and take everything he owns. (Which mostly everything we have is mine that I brought into this anyways)
Please tell me what you think
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wow this is really good. and hes prob beenhurt in the past so maybe hes scared of that kind of commitment. just enjoy being with himand see where it takes you. if a guy dont wanna get married right now u cant really presurre him. same withgirls too. as long as everything is going good in the relationship other than the commitment then it should be fine.but i guess that depends on how long u guys beendating too. i seen on ur page u live in michigan, i do too! i reside at the flint, michigan jobcorps but live in ohio when i go home on some weekends and summer/winter breaks. if u dont know of flint, its a hour fromdetroit.
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I am not saying that I want to pressure him into marriage. It's not like that. I love this boy so damn much. I have written on him about here in the past. Like in 2003. I dated him for two months when I was 15. He was 17 at the time. We hung out and knew each other a lot longer than 2 months obviously. He was the one that I let go because of something stupid. Well we've been back together a year as of Sept. 6. He has a son that I adore. Well anyways I always wanted to date him again. I was stupid in giving up and now I got a chance and he says he is ready to settle down but he doesnt want to sign over half of his stuff. Funny part is everything that came into this relationship was mine. He has nothing but his truck. Which I have my own car. And everything we by together is equally anyways. So I just don't get it. I would like to be married by the time I am 25. That is in 4 years. I don't think that I can stay with him the rest of my life if after 5 years he still doesn't know. I mean after 5 years I believe that you really know the person. I mean it only took me 2 years to realize I would never marry my ex. He was heartbroken and wanted me to marry him but at that point I knew. Besides that I want to be married before I lose any of my parents. Stupid I guess. But yes I have heard of Flint. I am closer to Grand Rapids.
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thats cool ur down there sounds like ur kinda far from me. so yep i live on campusat jobcorps in flint. it seems like a alright town but hard to get jobs.
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ok hey i understand. im guessing hes just not interested in the legal commitment i guess. u can always tell him u and him can sign one of those things ppldo when they get married i forget what its called tho. and i understand how u feel. im happy and in love with my boyfriend of 2 months. and i hope to live with him some day and get married to him.
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I hate that! So damn much! I see that crap everyday when if i go out to take of things! People...with someone...talking on the damn cell phone! How rude,pretentious,and inconsiderate. I know how that feels to have that person right next to you yet...they feel so far away...its awful and heart wrenching. I hope your pain eases.
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