try not to think less of me.

"I feel like the world has shifted and by meeting you I have changed and I can't imagine things being any other way."

"We never stop changing."

I shifted your words through my irises and twisted it to match my optimism that you never felt. I suppose I should have seem that our relationship was purely based on the highs we refused to come down from. That eventually, we were doomed to crash.

..

I should have noticed that I was destroying you. I'm sorry I never gazed over at the tremors that encased your body, too absorbed with my twitching fingertips. I was taken by the way my veins never seemed to die while yours collapsed within yourself by the puncture marks I never saw hidden by your polyester sleeve. I thought I was stronger and i suppose in some ways I was. Though now I know I was a coward. I was scared by the eerie lights that echoed off the surface so I climbed out, unaware that you dove deeper.

When I met you the sunshine shone behind your eyes mixing with the scars that would later deck your wrists. I saw you and I suppose I wanted to destroy or enlighten you. Its hard to tell which now-a-days. You reminded me of how i used to be before I chased butterflies that stung me and lights that blinded me and I hated you for that. I hated that you could be so unaware of the twisting of the time line you were doomed to ride.

That I would coax you to into appealing to your loneliness
screeching, "This will complete you"


you see, misery craves company.

..

I've noticed the mad glint in my eye has become less pronounce slipping into the creases of your insecurities and destroying the optimism you once had. We were once friends. You, unaware of the selfish reasons behind my extended hand and Me, blind to the fact that you were descending deeper than I ever had.

You see, from the very beginning, you had a knack for hide and seek. You were able to find things I had only dreamt[nightmares] of.  Sometimes I wonder if I knew it from the beginning. That I had some sort of deaf knowledge that you were a natural. Though for my sanities sake, I've decide that's impossible. If I knew that someday you would be the picture of my imperfections and unprecedented greed I would have left you safe within your eggshell.

And even though I know you won't believe me
It needs to be said,



I never meant to destroy you.