You say you know me...
you say you love me
Neither of these matter to me anymore
How can I be known to you, when I am not known to me
I lie to myself ...
to hide from the truth of who I truly am
Laughter my facade
Smiles are my veil
When all is at stake...
I run
Not running from fear
I run from what I was...
and what it has created in my mind
From the demons it has left tearing at what heart I have left
Delusional screams torture my being
Scarred memories flood in...
drowning me not in self pity but in sorrow of a wasted life
Exsistence now my curse
I pray to your god...
yet he refuses to grant me my prayer
He punishes me by keeping me alive
He shows his anger with the voices of those I have hurt...
voices of innocent friends...
voices of punished enemies...
and most of all the voices that will not leave a broken soul
Comments
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you really express your hate and your pain in a few stanzas its wonderful!so beautifully poisoned!!!
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a heavy, incredible write...the ending is killer...there is a torment in this that is easily felt...several lines reminded me very much of myself...i dig the depth and texture...emotional and numb...a dark beauty...well done, poet
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