please dont define me this way

i wish that you could see past my anxieties and phobia's
to truely see the real me the one who just wants to be like
everyone else and not have to worry bout everything i do

but instead i am seen as a outcast and loner who just doesnt
fit into the standards of the society that surrounds me everyday
that i wake up and face the new day only to know that i am going

to be judged based on the things i am trying to overcome
instead of seeing how hard i am really trying to work and get
past the things that haunt me from a past of bullying and teasing

that even to this day i still get because of the fact i have come out
with my true sexuality and that just isnt accpeted in this society of a
small town that is closed minded to the issues of the outside world.

so i was always punishing myself by cutting myself because i thought
then the pain would just go away from the rejection i was always feeling
little did i know that the choice i was going to be making would still haunt me.