The One That Got Away

Here’s a story about a girl who always made me happy
Even when we argued and she’d stick her tongue at me
Everyday we’d chase our little ways around the playground
And when it came to nap time, the two of us would lay around
When we held hands it was like walking through a meadow
It didn’t even matter that our school was in the ghetto
Back when we were kids and everything was so simple
She had a button nose and rosy cheeks with little dimples
We wrote little adventure stories, never using scriptures
We wrote all of our stories drawing goofy little pictures
Then she got older started hanging with the bad kids
Fucking like they’re rabbits, some of them had grandkids
It didn’t take too long before she jumped onto the wagon
Puffed the magic dragon with her blue jeans sagging
Pretty soon she even gave up going to her classes
Her mind started crawling even slower than molasses
All the fellas tried to holler at her and repeated
Corny little lines, and in time they succeeded
And when she tried to leave him and she told him her decision
The motherfucker lost his mind and beat her to submission
Knocked up, seeded
Her funds depleted
Always being beaten by a man who’s cheating
Thought about the baby so she rushed toward marriage
Only to regret it when she had a miscarriage
The girl had no insurance but she did have credit
Cards, and she’s working hard, forever indebted,
Now she is a waitress, working every night
A future so bright now it’s such a sad sight
And every other day, and sometimes on the weekend
I sneak into the diner like I’m having trouble sleeping
I show up kind of early and I patiently wait
As long as it will take cause because she usually works late
Even though I know she has nothing she do with me
She’s not the same person but I hope that she forgives me
Because now that I am older, now that we’ve grown up 
I know that she’s the best thing I ever let go of
What was I afraid of, what could have gone wrong
Why did I let go when I could have just held on
God, I’m so stupid
I should have fucking knew it
It was in my hands, and I had a chance and I blew it
Now she’s looking over,
I didn’t even order
My heart sinks down to the ground like a boulder
Holy shit man
I’m not ready for this man
I feel my feet sinking underneath like quicksand
This is fucking terrifying, I can’t take it
Her stare stripped me bare, I was scared and naked
Please take mercy, I’m sure you must curse me
I try to form a sentence but throat is all thirsty
Fuck, I was hoping, I wouldn’t start choking
Unable to speak when there were words to be spoken
This is fucking it, and now I’ve blown my cover
I try to say hello and I just stu-stu-stutter
She walks up to my table and pours me coffee
I can tell she’s nervous cause she’s pouring all sloppy
Listen baby girl I never meant to do you wrong but
I know that I was weak when I should have been stronger
She tells me, yeah, whatever
I mean, what could you do?
And I say: Make it up to you for the things that you’ve gone through.
She tells me to get lost, and now my life is in the pisser
I wonder if she understands just how much I miss her
I’m not trying to diss her just want to hug and kiss her
How could I’ve abandoned my little baby sister?