Good Enough

You keep on and on,
You keep stealing what little I've got,
What little joy that within me springs,
You've taken away....taken away.
You don't ask me how I am doing?
You don't ask me how was my day?
You keep calling me stupid,
But that's because you have assumed
What proof you think you may have.
I correct you and yet you keep on.
I start yelling back before long.
And it doesn't get us anywhere at all,
WHY IS MY LIFE ALWAYS UP AGAINST THE WALL?

COULD SOMEONE JUST BE NICE TO ME?
JUST BE KIND TO ME?
WITH NO CRUEL INTENT
OR ALTERIOR MOTIVE?
COULD SOMEONE JUST CARE ABOUT ME?
ASK HOW I AM DOING?
CARE AT ALL AND NOT OUT OF PITY,
COULD SOMEONE JUST LOOK AT ME
AND NOT SEE WHAT THEY CAN GET?
NOT SEEING WHAT THEY WANT?
WILL I EVER
EVER
EVER BE....GOOD ENOUGH?

Even after all that was said,
I go to you and apologize,
Even though you started it,
Even if you're just at fault
I shouldn't have yelled...
You are my parents after all.
Granted there is no dna or blood between us,
Granted I'm adopted and you belive
That somehow I am perminatly indebted to you,
Should I just always be greatful for what I'm going through?
I Love you but why do you make it
So difficult to like you?

COULD SOMEONE JUST BE NICE TO ME?
JUST BE KIND TO ME?
WITH NO CRUEL INTENT
OR ALTERIOR MOTIVE?
COULD SOMEONE JUST CARE ABOUT ME?
ASK HOW I AM DOING?
CARE AT ALL AND NOT OUT OF PITY,
COULD SOMEONE JUST LOOK AT ME
AND NOT SEE WHAT THEY CAN GET?
NOT SEEING WHAT THEY WANT?
WILL I EVER
EVER
EVER BE....GOOD ENOUGH?

Maybe I will never wear my hair just right,
Maybe I will never wear my clothes as well,
Maybe my bedroom will be lived in
And not photoshoot ready all the time,
Maybe I will be the mother that I want to be
And NOT BE LIKE YOU AND I....I WANT TO BE HAPPY
I WANT TO BE LOVED
I WANT TO BE CARED ABOUT
WITHOUT HAVING TO BEG
AND BEG AND BEG
I DON'T WANT IT TO BE
LIKE LAST TIME YOU SEE
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY....PLEASE!!!PLEASE!!!

COULD SOMEONE JUST BE NICE TO ME...
COULD I EVER HAVE BEEN
AND WILL I EVER BE
THE PERSON THAT I WANT
AND THE ONE YOU WANT SIMULTANIOUSLY?

IS GOOD ENOUGH....ME?