Ageless

I just want to crawl back into my space
where time stopped, and his hand gently slid down my cheek.
I just want to look up at him and watch until our eyes meet...
and lock....
And now while each expired second disintergrates before me,
I just want to touch it and wrap the ashes around me for security.
The congestion in my chest covers my heart in this disgusting haze,
but still I remember my space.
And I feel like I'm slowly disappearing, and my memory has forgotten all sense of speech, and I just stare,
mouth ajar, and I know...I don't know where I'm going from here.
I'm so lost and so far from the love that I remembered,
and I feel like this will never stop.
A barrage of silent pleas, and evil dreams, and I can't escape from the feeling that I'm going to die out here.
That every last thing I believed in will be lost,
and this time that I've spent will have been in vain.
I just want to crawl back into my space, and reach for his hand
but he won't return my gaze.
Further and further we're pulled apart,
and I keep reaching, stretching, screaming,
I just want my space, and my security wound tightly around me.
But I keep coming up empty...