Have you ever, did you?

Have you ever woke up one day and just wanted to scream?
Have you ever wanted to sleep forever because life is but a bad dream?
Did your best friend ever tell you that he can't stand to see what you've become?
I used to hear my grandpa telling me "Kid you'll make it if you overcome."
But I've wondered so far that I turned into something he can't watch or see
I've been angry so long that I don't think I can relax or breath
Have you ever been so mad that you couldn't hold back so you made a mistake?
Did you ever feel the shame from knowing everyone's gone for their own sake?
Have you ever wished that you could just up and leave?
But something's holding you back and so you just wait and see?
But the longer you stay the more things begin to crumble
And the the tears are held back but not enough to stay humble
Come on Tj just keep drinking
Never mind everything that you just keep thinking
When your friend says that can you tell if they really care?
Or did you become so blind that you can't even tell what's here or there?
Never mind it doesn't matter now because the bottle's in your hand
A split second later the swig's got your head in the sand
Did you ever stop to think that maybe life can't always be like this?
But you've been in this for so long that you don't know what better is?
Did you ever wake up and feel scared in the silence?
When the night before you fell asleep to sirens?
Did you ever stop and think about taking a knife or a bullet?
Because someone fucked with your life and you can't tolerate it?
Have you ever just stop caring about everything you felt and lost yourself?
And then one day found yourself breaking down because you just realized
That if you pulled the trigger you wouldn't even be killing yourself?
Have you ever tried turning yourself around but nobody cared to notice?
Or did you just realize none of this applies to you so you just feel bogus?