I Dont Care If I Let You Down

Whiskey eyes and vodka smiles poison my sober sense and make me drunk with confusion and fury. Smashed in my own wall of tears and disappointment. Blue moon lingers and fogs my good sense. I look into your eyes only to see dewdrops and some kind of mumbling that I don’t understand. You say something about being violated and yet I barely hear you over the flashbacks of the drunken memories. Even though the beverage is out of sight it still paralyzes my judgment. And yet I never had a sip.












You stuttered and whined and seduced in a beverage filled frenzy. You made a fool out of yourself in front of everyone you know. Now you look into my eyes as if expecting me to be a friend to someone who wasn’t acting like a friend to me. Someone who never listened to me and if she did she wouldn’t have been violated and her eyes wouldn’t be tearing. You expect me to believe you when you had too much of a blue moon and that’s why you don’t remember anything from that night. You expect me to believe you. And I half expected you to know better.















that’s right. I did expect you to listen to me. And I expect that your dew filled eyes will dry all on their own. You asked for my advice and you got it. You wont listen if I try to calm you and you wont care what I do to try to make you better. You got into this mess without me. Now your going to have to get out of it without anyone. You can cry and whine like a cute little crate training puppy. Innocence surrounding your reflection. It doesn’t matter to me. When you look into my eyes I don’t see a puppy I see a bitch. And nobody wants a bitch.












Fire is in your eyes at my refusal to hear It and I harden my heart same as yours. What your looking at is not the same person you were hoping to see. I stand in the way for you now because I wont let you die. I’m not going to lay you on a bed of roses even if that’s what you want. I wont put your initials on your grave and go to another funeral of someone I love. No. I wont help you kill your spirit your good sense and eventually your life. There is no such thing as one drink and my friend you are perfect evidence of it.











You let me fall so I dont care if I let you down.