The world sleeps as I'm wide awake
I have just made another big mistake
So determined that I set myself up to fail
I am living in my own hell
Self hate and disgust is what I feel
When will recovery ever be real?
Everyone tells me its all in my head
I feel like my insides are rotten and dead
Why is it that I just cant stop?
How long can this go on before I drop?
I am so angry with myself
Why can't I stop and think about my health?
This insanity makes me want to scream
If only this was just a bad dream
I would never wish this on anyone
I would like to know when this all begun
I don't want to do it again
This needs to be a battle I win
But it keeps calling me back in
What is wrong with me?
Why cant this let me be?
One moment I desperately want to get better
The next I don't want to give up on feeling light as a feather
Always trying to reach an unreachable goal
I feel as though there is a giant hole in the center of my soul
I cant give in yet again
I know this is a terrible sin
I always set myself up for fail
Trying and trying with no avail
One step forward, two steps back
I can never stay on track
What am I supposed to do?
I'm so sorry I keep doing this to you
I am so damn tired of this
I have fallen into a deep abyss
I have reached the point of no return
I am going to crash and burn
Thoughts, opinions? How could I improve this poem?
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luv it!!
Awesome write!! ...this needs 2b a battle I win, but it keeps calling me back in. Wuts wrong w/ me?? Why can't this let me be?? WOW-- awesome capturing of emotion-- exactly how I feel. One step forward, 2steps back, I can never stay on track!! Absolutely amazing, how ur write is EXACTLYhow I am feeling @ this very moment:/ lookin forward 2 readin more of ur writes in da future
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i love it!
It's so beautiful..
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This is a fantastic poem and it flows well. I love these lines...
"One moment I desperately want to get better
The next I don't want to give up on feeling light as a feather
Always trying to reach an unreachable goal
I feel as though there is a giant hole in the center of my soul."
Wonderful job. Please keep writing. Thanks again for the write.
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I love this poem!!! it's freakin amazing!!! Exactly how i feel...
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I can't really give much constructive criticism, since I never write poetry, and with good reason haha.
I wanted to say that you did a wonderful job of capturing the emotion and behind an eating disorder, just how damn hard it is to recover and just overall the hopelessness.
"The world sleeps as I'm wide awake
I have just made another big mistake
So determined that I set myself up to fail" I absolutely love these lines.
Great job.
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