Mom

Im standing alone here
Seeing my world collapse around me
Reaching out trying to catch every piece
Only to fall flat on my face

Watching you walk away or at least try to
Knowing I’ll never be able to look in your eyes
Or hold your hand if you do

I pushed you away and blamed you for the past
I was mean and spiteful
I pushed you out
But in truth I couldn’t have made it this far without you

You are the roots that stem my strength
The force behind me pushing me to grow up
And take the steps I’m not ready to

At the end of the day,
I’m still the child who needs her mother
I still cry mommy when I’m scared
I just don’t show it anymore
And no matter how old I get
That will never change