i live on the edge of suicide
riding the coaster of a life dwindling
and uncertain how much longer my grasp
will be strong enough to keep me
rooted to this earth...
i keep saying to those around me
that i cant tolerate the drama and trauma
but my words just fall like mist unnoticed
while my hold becomes more tenuous
with each passing day...
i am not crying out for help
comfort has passed too far beyond me now
dreams and hope no longer taunting me
now just laughing from the darkness
that slowly consumes me...
i drown in the flood of hurt
of damage and pain and sorrow and grief
the torrent of terrible things has come
to finally sweep my gasping soul
into the final abyss...
i just dont know anymore if
if the brutally cold winter coming soon
will be survivable for me as it looms
ever nearer and might push me from
the ice i barely skate on...
Please tell me what you think
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I don't know if this is truly how you feel but maybe it is since it seemed so sincere and straight from the heart! I personally enjoyed this write because I can relate. This is beautifully written and has a nice flow! Great write
Sincerely,
Sarah
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thank you but am unsure here--->>>
unsure because i have learned here that very little is ever genuine when it comes to peoples comments. over the years of being here it has made me a little on the jaded side as many times i have noticed that sooo many people are more interested in how many words thier comments are and thus how many "points" thier comments earn that i am not sure if i am reading truth or just "back patting" to earn the commenter a few points...
i personally think it sucks that even the word "sincerity" could be called into question here but i have learned to be a little on the skeptical side never the less...
anyhoo--- you ask if this is truly how i feel; honestly hun- i dont waste your eyes or my time by writing anything here that i dont mean!
this might sound a little weird but i have known sooo damn many uncool things that i just simply HAD to hit the point that i couldnt tolerate bullshit anymore and had to start laying things out as they are. ( no gift wrapping; just me. nothing more and nothing less.)
LOL- i kinda doubt you expected me to comment back in such a manner but if you come to know me you will think this is just a small part of what i might say... if you are tryly sincere with your comment then i truly thank you for the input!!!! I DO MEAN THAT!!!
if you want to read a little bit more into me you probably should read "despair". (that one has a lot of meaning too.) LOL- everything i put here has some meaning or it wouldnt be here...
FYI- i will check out your writes if you wanted that to happen.
peace to you-
-dev
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well said
U would not believe how much I can relate to each word expressed on this page. I could not have said it better myself. Alot of self expression in this piece, emotion, and truth.
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i appreciate your comment ya know--->>>
honestly i do believe how much you can relate. i really do hun. The truth and the emotion are not fabricated for the entertainment of the foolish masses that might read or not read the seeming tragedy of me. It isnt my purpose for placing my words here ya know. Likewise i know that the dark feeds just as hungrily upon your soul. We have spoken too many times for me to have any doubt about that... It frightens me sometimes that i have no words of comfort for you or for myself or for any fool looking for somebody to hold thier hand when already my hands are busy simply clinging to the thin rope of life as it is...
i dont know shit misty, never did and never will but somehow am still gratefull for our brief contact...
BTW-> you could have said it better because you already have many times in your writing hun! so there!
peace to you!
-dev
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