The Day I Died

There’s so much pain, where do I begin?
I took all the pictures of our wedding off the TV and the mantel above the fireplace
Since you ripped the heart out of my chest.
I can’t bear to look at them anymore.
All that remains are tears and all my fears coming true.

Why did you say” I do” when you meant “I don’t”?
Marriage was my fear I thought I had overcome thanks to your convincing words.
My guts were screaming no, but my beating heart was too loud for me to have heard.

“Was it all a lie?!” I cry.
How do you fall out of love over these short years?
How could you build false securities in my head assuring me there’s nothing to fear?
“I wanna know why?!!!!! Again I cry.

You made so many empty promises,
I fell for your cowardly deceit
So unaware of what you hide
I believed you were still in love with your beautiful bride.

I hope she makes you happy, the happiest man alive,
As I’m left alone to suffer, my faith and feelings is the sacrifice.
Like a fool, I continue to love you, desperately trying to do anything to make you stay.
My world as I know it is falling apart, another lover is waiting as you turn away.
Sadness has consumed my every breath, I’ll never love again as I loved you, secretly wishing for my death.
Truth be told I did die a little today.