Therapist

You do not need to torture your body, it did nothing wrong,
And if you keep this up, someday soon you will be gone.
For your body needs food to keep it alive,
So if you starve yourself, you will not survive.
You hate your body, I hear what you say,
But you are losing control, this is not the way.
You do not have to punish yourself, you are not to blame.
I will help you, you can show me your pain.

I don’t know why I starve myself, but it makes me feel good.
For I am hurting inside, but this makes me feel as I should.
It gets me through each and every day,
For there is a pain inside me that won’t go away.

What is this pain you feel inside?
What is it you are trying to hide?
Have you a secret you cannot tell?
Is this why you are making yourself unwell?

I do not know anymore,
I just want a body I can adore.
I need to make myself thin,
I want to be happy, I want to be slim.

What thoughts go on in your mind?
What are you hiding?  What are you trying to find?
What do these thoughts make you feel?
I can tell you if they are real.

I think I am fat and I need to be thin.
I know I will be happy when I am slim.
For as the days pass by, I don’t feel like a freak.
I feel strong, I am no longer weak.

You need to understand that you are strong,
And starving yourself like this is very wrong.
You need to gain control, but in a different way.
You can open up, for you have something to say

I feel so bad, but I don’t know why.
Sometimes I feel like I want to die.
I no longer cry, there are no more tears,
I have been getting worse over the years.
I can’t seem to fit in, I feel so sad,
And when I am not sad, I have an anger so mad.
What is wrong with me, I feel so wrong,
I don’t know if I can carry on.

This is how you really feel,
But these thoughts you have don’t have to be real.
We can talk about why you feel so bad,
And what it is that first made you sad.

I have felt like this for so very long,
I don’t know how I have carried on.
I cannot explain what is happening inside,
I really don’t know what I am trying to hide.
For years and years I have felt the same.
Now I fear I have gone insane.
I really don’t feel that I belong,
I really wish I was gone.

How would that make you feel,
If you were gone, no longer real?
What would it achieve?  What is your aim?
What would it release?

It would rid of my pain.

Can you explain this pain to me?
What would it take for me to see,
This pain in a way that I can understand?
I am here for you, I will hold your hand.

This pain is inside, it fills me with darkness.
It keeps me trapped, alone in sadness.
I feel I have a stain, a mark of sin,
I think it was created because of him.

Him?  A person has left a mark?

Yes. He is the one who hurt me in the dark.
Deep in the darkness of the night,
He would come and give me a fright.

What would he do? 

He would give me fear.
Then he would go and I could not cry a tear,
For it was a secret, I could not tell.
Is this why I am not very well?