i've got these voices in my head begging me to pay attention
open my eyes, quit dreaming, and remember what matters most
but i'm still blindsided by all of the things falling from the sky
reminders of the days i used to spend alone in my little shell
the comfort and warmth that loneliness tried to provide for me
the reality that beckoned me to stare at the mirror and scream
"You aren't real! You aren't who I am supposed to be!"
smelling the flowers isn't quite what it used to be now
and the clouds overhead whisper hints of the storm that lies ahead
squeezing my eyes back shut, the fractals spell out words i can't make out
and the ringing in my ears begs me, "Live for fuck's sake. For our sake. For their sake."
but i just can't make the heart beat to the same rhythm they need
the knife glistens in the moonlight as i whittle out my niche in the world
so close to making my mark, yet again, the knife slips and i fail
this dream so unclear yet so vivid that my mind won't stop racing
and then i wake up to feel you next to me and all is fine
every smile, every laugh, every scent reminds me of you when you are away
and i can feel the tears well up and that awful feeling in my throat
i'm never going to feel at home unless i am in your arms
just hear me out, just feel me out, just don't let me fall back down
the bottom is a frighteningly real place, and it is a terrible place to visit
please keep me away from the darkness, because you are my candlelit vigil
the small hint of my failure, but the hope to press on
the love that i could never find on my own
something brought us here and nothing can make us leave
not now, not ever, not even if the sun were to explode
your touch is the shock therapy my heart has always needed
your kisses are the pills that make my head okay
and for the sake of making these last lines rhyme
you are the operation that makes all of the pain go away
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