You Are To Blame

If you would shut the fuck up for even a day
Would you realize
You're the reason it's all this way
If you would step back
And look at where you've gotton us all
With your hatred and lies
If you would look a little closer
And open up your eyes
Look close enough to realize I'm still breathing
If you only knew how I've been living my life
If you knew how it feels to have nothing left inside
To have to live with shame you can never hide
You would see why you are the one to blame
For all my mistakes and all of my pain
How is it I have survived through this
Am I really lucky to be alive
I wanna risk my life again
Just to feel a rush of coming close to the end
Only to be pulled back and awake again