Required by circumstances
I have managed to gather myself
And my thoughts to try and
Put a meaning to my absurdity
I wish I had a way to start
I wish I could simply make
You understand why things
Went the way they did
I can only start by letting
You know the truth
For the time that I have
Known you, joy has been
The highlight of my every day,
I can now understand
The pleasure of having
Someone who cares about me
I was overjoyed and more or
Less above the moon
So much so that I had to say
Yes without a thought
When you asked me out
I could not contain myself
I picked up my best dress
And already knew how beautiful
I wanted to look for you
My heart pounded each time
The thought of meeting you
Came to my mind
I felt that rush….and the hot flushes
I felt the butterflies
Up and down my stomach all day
My mind was simply
Flooded with doubts
At some point
What if I am not what you
Expect me to be
Will I be left feeling
Ignored and lonely?
Would you have scolded me and
Never call me back?
I considered your position and mine
I was scared and did not want to put
You off
All the same a part of me really
Was so eager to see you
Touch you hold you
And tell you how free you
Have set me and my heart…
There were so many questions
That came to my mind
That I could not
Find answers to
So in the end I let the
Demons of shyness have
The best of me
That was the only excuse
That made sense to me
At the time
I succumbed to my fears
I let my self down
And worst of all
I disappointed you badly
I can only imagine what a
Fool I made you feel
For that I am very sorry
I know I should have called but
I Hope you can understand
I have been here before and
The fear of the past held me back
And it is not your fault
I want to make it up to you
Is there a way we can pretend
That episode never transpired?
Is there a way we can start
All over again?
I promise I will be good this time.
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© All rights reserved By Chey Xie 2009
Author notes
Hope this helps...good luck.
A contest entry
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This is wonderful! Self doubt --when does it help? It's hard not to listen to those voices.
The tone of this poem is really nice! Very well expressed! Great job!
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yes these things do happen in life and sometimes the power of a self-doubting mind can and will overcome any good will and desire there was.
What a nice little poem to express those feelings and hopefully help someone get over the hurdles.
I like it, I like it so!
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Thank you for all your hard work. You have done a wonderful job here!
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Wow, talk about laying it all out on the line, you certainly pulled that off well and this is what I call untainted truth. No fancy buttons pushed, nothing to cloud the meaning, just pure polished truthful emotions painted perfectly on the page.
I wish you the best of luck in the contest dear, you did well with this prompt!
Suzi
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This is a wonderful and emotional poem for the prompt dear. I think you did a wonderful job with this. I hope it helps as well. Good luck in the contest.
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