addicted to love

I am listless
as I climb inside the blood
that harbors within my veins
addiction slumbers quietly
I am in search of another dose.

Your name
drags in my heart
your touch lingers on my skin
like a drug you infected me
leaving me addicted and betrayed.

Hollow,
as a true addict would be
combing through the memories
like a fiend in search of a hit
I make the effort to quit
yet fail once again.

Have I hit bottom?
this I am not to sure
as I have bent to my knees
begging for the mercy of my heart to heal
and my eyes to adjust to the dark.
I become comfortably numb.

Asking myself,
as I peer into my reflection
"who have I become"
the answer lies inside the drug
like a true addict I lean on it
for support for relief
and like a true narcotic
you abandon me in my time of need.

I see what is not there
as you blind me to reality
like a hallucinogenic
you create an illusion right before my eyes
making me believe the UN-believable.

I have slammed you into my spirit
and you have stolen my identity
as I become just another junkie
and you become just another lie
as I overdose on your deception
I am listed as just another suicide.