Dah Duh

Stay incognito
Run under beds
Hide in the trees
And behind every wall

Just run from yourself
& don’t let anyone catch you
But now I’m here,
Delivering your unpleasant truth

Claim to care, then don’t look my way
Singling me out
Screaming and banging
Go on, I’ve learned to tune you out.

Just remember
I was born with your mentality
And that’s the one and only thing
That will ever scare me.

Sick of my swear words?
Sick of my sulking?
Well I’m sicker than you
In fact, sick in the head.

Say I don’t know you
How your childhood was
I know you didn’t have a Father
But still,

You act as if I don’t exist,
and we live in the same house
And you know how life is without a father
But who is disrespecting who, you say?

You’re soaked in hypocrisy
And wringing it all out onto me
All I did was become you,
And that wasn’t voluntary.

I never asked for this anger!
Never wanted a single bit of my self caused loneliness
“Mommies looks and Daddies attitude tee hee”
Never had a choice though.

People call this funny
How I rarely hear your voice, and I still act like you
So, daddy dearest, what pill should I take for that?
You’re the expert in pills

I can’t admit that though
And no one else can, specifically you
A family that tiptoes when you’re here
And frolics when you’re gone? Very healthy.

Migraines at just the right time,
I don’t like being social either
but I care about you, so as far as you know I’m ok
Yet you still call me whiny

I apologize for my bad acting
I just can’t lie though
I’m not okay!
And you’re the cause

Although you never hit me
I just can’t wait until you do
Get it over with
Right here Daddy

But know one thing
This suspense, it’s not killing me
Just you, blood pressure skyrocketing
Wasting your time with hate

Your self-diagnosis of an upstanding citizen needs a second opinion
An addict A liar A hypocrite A hermit
Thanks for the lovely traits,
Worlds Best Dad.

And the worst part is,
I still keep learning from you
I still so desperately want to be the smart, never smiling one
The one who was secretly funny, but the only way to laugh is with a brain

People fear turning into their parents
Because that means they’re turning boring
But I fear becoming you
Because that means I’m becoming an addict of an angry shell of a human.

So run from yourself
While I hide from myself too
If I’m inevitably becoming you,
I might as well embrace the hopelessness now.

Like an animal raised for testing
Or a flower planted in the shade
I was born without a chance to bloom
All thanks to you.