I run to her with a smile.
But as I keep running it seems like she gets farther away by miles.
I look at her my eyes a glaze.
Then she is gone as if i were seeing things in a daze.
So i fall to the floor and collapse in sobs.
It seems as if my heart has been robbed.
My mind is coated with a heavy fog.
The pain has numbed me and hollowed me out like a log.
Then it hits me she is gone.
This isn't a joke or a con.
She is in heaven.
I feel so dead inside as i write with this pen.
"Cancer" the word is a taunt.
She is never coming back it says ever so blunt.
You didn't even get to say goodbye, it giggles.
My mind goes crazy as I start to scribble.
I took her from you it laughs in my face.
I told you she would never win this race.
She is in a better place.
No one will ever fill her space.
I cry and lay on the couch all alone.
My sobs get louder but I try to control my tone.
I won; it cries.
I lay down and just want to die.
You won the battle I say, but I will win the war.
Because one day I'll go to heaven and see her; I'll settle the score.
It taunts me and laughs as I lay there and cry.
And all I keep saying to myself is why?
Why did he have to take her?
What did I do to deserve this pain, please tell me sir.
I love her so much.
But now she is gone and I miss her comforting touch.
The way he laughed when I did something dumb.
Now I feel no happiness, I only feel numb.
Stop taunting me I scream.
Please make this all be a dream.
I lay down and go to sleep.
And memories of you start to creep.
Memories of past birthdays and hugs.
The memories that I hold dear and keep hidden under my rug,
The rug in which I hide my tears.
So no one can see my fears.
And no one will see my tears.
Grandma I love you and I know.
You made me strong, you made me grow.
And your love will always surround me in a glow.
I will see you soon this I now know.
Because you're heaven but I still miss you so.
I'll see you soon.
And sometimes I think you hung the moon....
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