Night After Boring Fucking Night

You say that you are happy for me to be in college
But all I see is nothing but arguments in my way
Day after day I hear you bitch and moan about how we are behind
If I’m your problem, just get rid of me
I hate the fact that my brother can hit me and you just sit there
You say you talk to him but I don’t see a change
If I hit him, I would be locked up in a facility
So why doesn’t he get into trouble
I don’t think that is fair, or reasonable to me
How would you like it to be hit and you can’t do shit about it
I fucking hate the way I’m not treated like family at times
Is a functional family supposed to hit other family members?
I am supposed to graduate this year from high school
But, I don’t feel like it anymore
How the fuck am I supposed to be motivated when all people do it hurt me?
How can I want to be successful when all I do is get torn down?
I don’t care that he is only seven years old
That doesn’t matter when you discipline him
I want so badly to knock some sense into him
To let him know that I’m not playing his damn game
It hurts to sit in my room all day long
Feeling like I’m not ever going to belong
How can you let him say that he loves me night after night
When he hits me, punches me, kicks me
Am I that unworthy to be trusted with words?
Can you not believe what I tell you that he does?
I have the bruises to show you but you overlook them as everyone else does
I hope one day you will see the effect this is having on me
Until then, I’m still going to be sitting in my room
Night after boring fucking night